After years of minor depression, things turned around. At least for a period of time. You see, my life back then really went back and forth, to extremes, between depression and happiness. Usually, it was as a result of my codependent tendencies, and whether or not there was someone significant in my life. As you will see:

In my eyes, I see the spring shining through the clouds, as if it were trying to break through. In my eyes, I see the sunshine that I have missed, giving me life, and the desire to live. In my eyes, I see again a wonderful life- has it been this long since I’ve been happy? The gray of winter has dulled me, the color of spring will revive me and my life. Seeing the water happily run through the brook it belongs to makes my heart beat to a lovely song. In my eyes, I see happiness once again…

It’s really sad how my happiness back then was contingent on someone else being in my life, that I was directly affected by the presence of a girlfriend. Although I will say that a lot of my best poetry came as a result of dating:

The wind blows strongly across here face-
Her hair flutters, like the butterflies in my stomach.
For I assume nervousness while in the presence of such beauty-
The air is warm, and the moon is full,
Complimenting the stars that sit above us.
Waves crash down, as I feel the sparkle in her eyes grow inside of mine.
She smiles, and my heart beats faster, for every beast whispers her name.
There she is before me, a silhouette against a dark blue sky,
Making me feel like I’ve wanted to forever…